Some days it is very easy to hate ones self. Today is one of those days. I hate myself so much. I hate that I am scared to drive, I hate that I am 20 and have accomplished nothing, I hate that I am poor, I hate my lack of drive, I hate my laziness, I hate my face, I hate my body, I hate my thoughts, I hate my heart, I hate my art, I hate my desires, I hate my feelings, ...I hate everything about me. Why is it then I do not try to change these things...?
Je tiens à disparaître...
Je tiens à disparaître...
i hope you will feel better <3
ReplyDeleteits okies to feel this way sometime cause you learn from it and its impossible to be happy all the time.
I find that i can create paintings better based off my negative feelings. Which is nearly all the time.
Thank you so much, my dear friend.
ReplyDeleteIt seems that I am the same when it comes to my sadness. My best works come from my feelings of loneliness, depression, and all other negative feelings.
It is wonderful and a shame at the same time.