It seems that as soon as I am in the mood to blog at least relatively often, something happens so that I am unable to do so! There is no internet in the house yet and as hard as I try to "borrow" wifi to no avail. Currently I am using a computer in my college library and it is oh so quiet here since it is rather late in the day.
Oh how I love the quiet <3
My love is sitting in front of a computer that is next to mine. He is blogging away just as I am. That is something I am proud to say I have gotten him into. He is quite a good writer and though his entries are private to the world, I am happy he shares them with me. It is a really good feeling to be able to share anything and everything with someone and not feel bad or embarrassed by it. In fact just this morning I had a VERY embarrassing moment (no I shall not share what it was!), and though my love laughed at me I knew it was because somehow in his strange mind he thought I was cute! My cheeks flushed red but soon after the event happened I got to laugh at one of his embarrassing moments. Sadly, I am the one who ends up doing embarrassing stuff all the time hehe...
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Anywho...it is quite interesting living in a house with 10 and 14 year old boys. I have found it quite difficult to sleep for they stay up till perhaps 4 in the morning and are rather loud even when settling in for bed. The 1o year old does care for me a bit and I him. He asks so many question and has the loveliest eye lashes I have ever seen! As for the 14 year old, well it is hard to say what the feelings are there.
He often will not address me and if he does it is normally by "faggot" or some other demeaning term. I understand that at times he is trying to be funny and playful, but other times he is just being plane mean. I believe the reason he picks on me so often is because I have "stolen" his older brother away from him. Before I came along all they had was each other. Now it appears I have thrown a wrench into the gears. I just try to be as nice as I can and hope that one day he will understand things better and treat me more nicely.
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As for my art....what art?!!?!?! UGH V.V I have been unable to draw for sometime now because of lack of a decent table and quite area to draw or paint. I really must save up my pennies to get my own place. Only then will I become focused, calm, and creative.
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May you all be well.
